Thursday, February 18, 2010
I am starting to realize that it is so hard for me to really relax. Whenever I begin to indulge in some self-pampering or any other down time, I start feeling somewhat guilty.
"What do I NEED to do right now?"
"Okay, this is a waste of my time."
"I should be studying right now, writing, or sending out resumes."
"I really need to call X, Y and Z back."
These are just some of the thoughts that creep into my mind whenever I want to just take a break from the craziness of life. However, after a few explosive outbursts, anxiety attacks complete with a full body rash, and crying spells I have learned that learning to really relax is just as important as anything else on my extensive to-do list.
For me, cleaning my house from top to bottom while playing some of my favorite songs in the background was my relaxation choice. While I would be pleased with how neat and clean everything was afterwards, I was left feeling more exhausted and worked up than when I started.
I've tried exercising to let off steam but, for some reason this is almost impossible for me. For some strange reason, I get the best workouts when I am in a good mood already. I know it works for so many others but, attempting to work out while I'm stressed out is a huge negative for me.
So, I am still searching for some REAL de-stressing methods. Something that will have my mind AND body at ease, even if it's only for a few minutes. I never dreamt that relaxing would be this hard but, I guess I will keep trying to figure it out.
So, how do you de-stress?
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