Sunday, March 7, 2010
Lately it seems that I have become obsessed with any and everything pertaining to babies. Most of my leisure time is filled with reading mommy blogs and watching television shows about pregnancy and parenthood. Although I don’t really need a baby right now (I would rather be married again and finished with grad school), I find myself fantasizing daily about being pregnant and being a mother. I guess my biological clock is just starting to tick faster as I approach 30 this year.
Back when I was in my early 20’s and planning the timeline for my life, I was supposed to have one baby at 26 and the next one at around 28/29. At 29, I am now divorced with no kids which is not really a bad thing but, it was definitely not the turn I expected my life to take. So, I guess it just proves that you never know what plans God has in store for your life. However, I still have bouts of serious baby fever.
I feel that I am at a good age to have a baby but, when I think about it I still feel somewhat scared and not ready. I suppose that's normal. Other days, I feel like time is quickly passing me by and I need to get started sooner rather than later! I also have PCOS and I worry that I will have to actually try to have a baby (not very fun if you ask me). Just thinking about the whole thing makes me nervous and confused which leads me to think, do you ever feel completely ready?
For all of you ladies who are moms, when did you know that you were ready to have a baby? Did you have to try or did it just happen? When you were pregnant, what symptoms did you have? What was your first reaction when you found out?
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